HALLOWEEN BLUES.

sheesh,now to think of it, i think this is my first time ever since school reopen to stay at home on a saturday night. girlfriend went to malaysia for awhile oh dear. just way boring cause i wanna be alone in the room but somebody is in here. ._. how sickening sheesh.

HIDDEN DETAILS.

alright so i will do a small homework for you guys to know everything about the meaning of the color and number of roses.

THE MEANING OF EACH COLOR:

RED (Sincere Love & Respect, Courage & Passion.)
- Send red roses to convey the message of your passionate love for that someone; saying "I love you".

PINK (Grace & Gentility, the rose of sweet thoughts.)
- Send deep pink roses to show your appreciation & gratitude; saying "Thank you" Send light pink roses to convey admiration and sympathy.

YELLOW (In the Victorian times, yellow roses meant for jealousy. But today, they signify friendship, joy, gladness and freedom, the promise of a new beginning.)
- Send yellow roses to brighten up someone's day; to congratulate your friends and loved ones during Joyous occasions.

WHITE (Spiritual love & Purity, the rose of confession, the bridal rose; "You are heavenly, I am worthy of you".)
- Commonly used as traditional bridal bouquet during weddings to symbolize a happy love. You can nevertheless use them to convey the message of "You are heavenly, I miss you"

LAVENDER (Love at first sight and enchantment.)
- Send lavender roses of course, to convey the message of your "love at first sight" with that special someone. You can nevertheless also send them if you would like to make a special impression.

ORANGE (Passionate desire, pure enthusiasm and fascination.)
- An excellent choice for a new relationship that you wish to pursue further. It can nevertheless also be referring to a new business partnership.

THE MEANING OF EACH NUMBER:

1. Love at the first sight; you are the one.
2. Mutual love between both, deeply in love with one another.
3. I love you.
6. I wanna be yours.
7. I'm infatuated with you.
9. An Eternal love, together as long as we live.
10. You are perfect.
11. You are my treasured one; the one I love most in my life.
12. Be my steady.
13. Secret Admirer.
15. I am truly sorry, please forgive me.
20. Believe me, I am sincere towards you.
21. I am devoted to you.
24. Can't stop thinking about you, 24 hours everyday.
33. Saying "I love you" with great affection.
36. I will remember our romantic moments.
40. My love for you is genuine.
50. Regretless love, this is.
99. I will love you for as long as I live.
100. Harmoniously together in a century; remaining devoted as couple till ripe-old age.
101. You are my one and only love.
108. Please marry me!
365. Can't stop thinking about you, each and everyday.
999. Everlasting and Eternal love.

i've been youtube-ing on AGT and BGT (american & britain got talent) and i came across a few interesting videos:








HEEHEEHEE! yes i know aiden davis is damn good. i gotta thanks chris for this video as well. he asked me to check aiden davis out on his itouch. :D

THOSE DAMN CLOWNS.

so i've been working again recently. it's like you guys always hearing me either working or more OTs. alright, so i recently came across with this conclusion. this conclusion seems only the singaporeans will do it. while i was taking order 3 customers, 2 indian ladies and a masaleh fella. darnoe what is his nationality but yeah, his definitely a masaleh. ok this is the bizz about singaporeans. you bitches tend to loose yourself infront of masaleh. i mean for what? so that you can be the same league as them? do you think what they think of you when you try to speak or act like them? where is your pride and dignity of being an asian? is being an asian that bad? no, i don't think so. it's like you have to give comment in everything he recieve (like his maincourse is delivered to him already) and you will add a comment like, "oh that look good." only the tiny minority will do that in singapore and i'm talking about asians to asians. i remember that masaleh ordered bread pudding or something and i said it's not available, this dumb indian bitch went slanging, "oh that's tragic." with a loud tone which she thought she was the most outstanding one in there. know your role and where you stand. don't force yourself to be in the same league as them. it's an utter disgrace. am not just pointing indians, am saying everyone should know where they came from and their limit. you don't say, "i think i can slang like him." you don't think. once you have that thought, you are a goner. i'm not saying if you can you slang, just keep it to yourself if you know you can. you need to be humble for social liking.

oh, you bitches need not to act as if you went to the world best restaurant and knowing what are good services of fnb like. no, you don't. you don't need make sucha big matter if your coffee is not right. i mean what's the big thing about it? it's only a damn coffee. not your damn life. so if this little thing bothers you, do you wanna check our environment as well? the basin, the signboard all those? if no, then why be a pest in the first place?

yes and there is this auntie i wanna bitch about right here. you come here for a cheap 1 for 1 hi-tea and a damn pizza and you're complaining so much? it's just a fucking milk we didnt bring it to you and you're saying our service is not good? why not you look around before you launch a complain? you've got 2 fucking pair of eyes and you still can't see? i saw how you look at my manger's nametag and you know you look like what? look as if you can conquer the whole world. WHAHAHAHA! fucking retarded. do you want his address and his village name? or maybe who was the first being in his tribe? moron.

OLD GRAMP!

so i got to know that today is actually my dad's birthday. so i thought of going out to have dinner but little did i expect, my mum and sister said to cook at home and my sister went back to in-law's side so i guess celebrating isn't gonna happen.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

though am a a little confused about your age. so if am not wrong, it's around 53. yes old folk. dad always try to be there for his kids that convert this manner to pamper. that make us a very spoilt child. but i told myself not to be that spoilt but my sister, i think she's beyong hope even until now. yes.

i thank you:

1. for your daily drive.
2. my wages.
3. for my irregular timing.
4. for my meals.
5. for the support during army.
6. for the irritating singing you have.
7. for the laughter.
8. for the things you sacrifice for us.

big thanks. big love.

i remember during my super younger days, i used to say, "i love you mum and dad!" but yeah as you grew older, things like this dont come often.

another special thanks to you dad that you thought me the basic of guitar. with your basics, i develop my own skills. without basics, i won't be at this level now. so without you, i'll probably giving up my guitar.

thankyou. i thank you again.
you are appreciated.

BACK TO MY PARADE.

it took nearly 2 months for my injury to be fully recovered and i thought it could never be recover. so school reopen on the 19th october and to realize that's only 2 weeks away. i've been seriously working my ass off these few days. i wake up at 8am and come home at 11pm. yes. i'm working all day long. makes me feel like am some sorta coolie. now i do understand the feeling of having 2 jobs. but no pain no gain, i have an earning of 1k. so i'm quite happy about it but it's a shame that i wasn't part of IT fair and F1 part time jobs. if i were in, i prolly been having 1.5k or maybe more. this is not greed but it's impetus. it's a momentum that drives you to the extreme. like being possessed, you just have to go no matter how tired you are. i work so much that i got myself homesick. HAHA! stupid right? though i know by doing this will cause some arguments and misunderstanding of my image that am a slave for cash but nah. this isn't what it's like. i just don't know how to put it. maybe this is one part of human. doing things without knowing why but you still wanna carry on. it's hard to back out cause you are at the midst of it.

so i sold my ps3 and prolly my chivas as well. i just didnt wanna owe anything to that person. i just didnt like the feeling of owing especially to that person.

i'm tired.
just very tired.
cut me some slack.

oh. fuck your linkin park, paramore and hip. it's trash.

i feel like deleting this blog.

WAIEH WAIEH!

i could say i get irritated pretty easily. i just don't know why people with fucking ugly faces loves to stare? oh you don't care what others say about you? so what about this comment for you fugly people out there that we think you are born with such horrendous feature that it disgust society. don't blame us for judging you but it's you made it out of yourself. don't think for 1 bit you are supreme. you are never close. we are not prejudice but it's you yourself again make us hate your category. by doing this, you think we owe you alot. what is this? self-comfort to give you a reason to live on? hard life is hard as hell. you better back the fuck up cause this is no kind of life.

judging on your behaviour i hope you know best where you stand. you probably won't even make it to a M18 cinema. shit. PG suits you best. we don't need anything from you. it will be just fine cause we will never be bought and sold just like you. start remembering faces and getting pissed over them again and again.

it makes me sick when you're bootlicking your manager infront of your colleagues. i've seen some in my workplace and it disgust me. makes me sick. it's not yourself. more like putting a mask infront of everybody. i read this mail and it's totally true. in western, the boss work hand in hand with people. they are one of them. but in asia, no. never sucha thing. your boss is your GOD. you have to worship them. why? why do asias have to work till like that? no wonder you are tired. this is crap.

ON AND ON..

so todaye i had a mini class soccer with my classmates. i reallie do thought that it's gonna be a training type of soccer cause i didnt reallie want to it be that intensive since my injury just recover. so had little time for training cause marcus kick my pickup ball to the 2nd level which my school 2nd gym and guess what? he told me it's always lock over there. G_G

so not long later, a group of fellas came to play with us. i didn't expect so many things to happen in me. like seriously. ok lemme bitch the possibilities that why my performance wasn't up to my standard.

1. it was hazey.
2. i just recover, even zhihow says my running movements are kinda weird.
3. i thought i did pretty well for stamina but still not enough.
4. maybe the court was just too big for 5v5.
5. i just don't know why my shoes can give me a blister which i've been wearing it for almost a year.
6. i think the turf did slow me down alittle cause not used to it.

i wonder if it's true that what zhihow said is right. my movements are getting slower. hmmmms, maybe but maybe not. but somehow i think i might be slow in some sense but my vision is still up to my expectation. i still live up by having those scoring touches but kinda wasted a few.

i didn't expect my team got thrashed so badly. 1 - 4 man! i think there's nothing much we could do about it. i just came back from injury and it's kinda my first time kicking soccer with this batch of classmates. we don't know what to expect from the rest and what's more we are lack of match practise and yeah. needa work things out. i reallie do believe that the team we face today are easy peasy. if i didn't got injured. maybe it could end up a 4 - 3 or draw? cause i roughly know which area i should work out already.

yeah i remember that feel of a must-win-situation. where you will put full focus on it. i remember it so well and know how does it feel. doing things on my own which many do not like but to have the lead. yes, i trust my instinct and the skills i have to conquer. many have said 1 person won't stand much chance but i'll say make full use of the chance you have and maximise your focus.

so i've learnt the anime bleach ending theme which is "Mad Surfer" from Kenichi Asai. it took me like 13mins to master the whole song. but i believe the chords that are given to me are not exact. i'll probably improvise it my way to make it sound better.

if there were "something" that cause me so much of today, i hope it disappear soon enough.